Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Temporary Inner Peace.

The formula to relax in my life:

-Cleaning my dorm
-Organizing my belongings
-Listening to relaxing, classic/rock/folk music.
-Sunlight

I am ready for spring, I am ready for summer. I want to be happy and at peace again.

"Nirvana means freedom from pain, suffering, and the external world."
-Otep

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

All or None;

When it comes down to it, everything is all or none.

Good or bad.
Happy or sad.
Sick or well.

And now, I believe I've "got it all" in the worst category possible;
-Major Depression
-Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
-Generalized Anxiety Disorder
-Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder
-Phobias

The first two are known by my doctors, the other three are more up in the air  though my nurses sure as HELL know I have an needle/injection phobia.

To cheer myself up after a day full of crying, chest pains, and "faking" sick from class, I bought "The IT Crowd series 1 & 2." It's pretty cheap on www.amazon.co.uk; shipping all the way to New York is around $5 - not bad!

And I know I don't blog as much any more, I need to get back into the habit. I have a lot on my mind, a lot on my plate, and even though I'm busy, a quick distraction here or there would be nice.