Cycles and So-Called Coincidences

First off, I'd like to point something out - and this probably has to do with my constant addiction to change and my severe problem with finishing things. It shouldn't, and doesn't, matter if I post five times in one day and then not at all for weeks. Maybe one day I have an excess of thoughts that I want to write down, and sometimes I have nothing I deem worthy. Same goes for length; maybe a few sentences to get my point across, but more likely than not, several paragraphs.

As we're on the subject of time anyways. It's just a unit. I feel like I'm stuck in one of those magical realism novels that we're forced to read in IB English. Like Water for Chocolate, for example. (It was one of the few books I actually read completely. Maybe it's my own form of defiance, but I don't enjoy reading books that I'm assigned.) Time in that book was cyclical, and lately I feel like I've been going through cycles that I should have picked up on by now. People say I'm observant, and I agree.

I get in habits - whether it be days, weeks, or even months - of doing certain things. Sometimes its the type (or amount) of movies i watch or books I read. I like when it feels like things are all coming together. Sometimes I like reality, sometimes I like fiction. Sometimes I like to point out how they're not all that different.

Right now I'm reading Things Change and Schindler's List. The first is about your typical high school situations. The characters are juniors and seniors, so I don't feel like I'm 'above' what they're going through. The second is about a German man who saved more Jews during the Holocaust than any other single person. I like having people to look at and think 'Damn, he did so much with his life. What am I going to do?' It makes me feel like I could be important, I just have to work at it and find my own way.

We were given our final assignment for English class this week. It's a paper (essay, though not as typically formal) on personal destinies and how you feel about fate and destiny and purpose and so on. I absolutely love the assignment - mainly because I have strong opinions (positive and negative) about everything on the list.

I guess this is where I end this rant, so as not to drag it on and on. Expect more soon, I have thoughts practically pouring out my ears at the moment.