Everything you Thought was Wrong.

I hate those days when you realize this. That moment when you know, you've been convinced that you thought, felt, or meant something and suddenly you realized that you'd conned yourself. You've warped all those thoughts and feelings in your head just to try and get some peace of mind.

I'm telling you now, it never lasts. Sometimes days, sometimes years, but never forever.

You could have a list of pros and cons; the list could be completely cons, (which you want. You want to be uninterested in this anyways, so cons are what you're looking for.) you may not be able to think of something positive, but something intangible is there. Not something you can write down. And as much as you hate it, it outweighs all of the cons, completely.

I never want to fall in love. Or at least, sometimes I feel this way. Because I started to think...if simple emotions like this are already coming up, what would happen if the person I was in love with hurt me? There is no worse pain in the world. I used to think "well, if they hurt me I won't love them anymore. Simple as that." Now I'm starting to doubt my own logic because emotions have no logic whatsoever.

I envy people who live in tragedy and find the good in life. Because here I am, living a good life, and finding tragedy instead.