I was seeing a therapist once a week for a couple months, but it wasn't helping. I don't know if it was because I didn't trust or like her, but I constantly lied to her. Sometimes I wonder if a different therapist would help.
It really does depend on the person, and I don't know what 'type' I am.
I know I don't want medication for depression because I've seen how it fucks people up. However something to help the ADD would be nice. OCD I can live with.
My friend's mother, who I've known since I was five, was talking to me about therapists and depression. When we got to OCD, and I described how I like things in alphabetical order, I eat fruit loops in rainbow-color order, and so on, she simply said, "Leah, what aspects of your life do you feel you lack control in?" And seeing as I was so comfortable I immediately replied, "EVERYTHING!" She laughed and told me that she'd been in therapy for almost 25 years, and that there is nothing wrong with trying out a few different ones.
I know I need help. I'm not crazy, just needy.
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