Sunday, September 14, 2008

Realist or Optimist.

I don't care what you call me. I feel like everything I want to do and see, everywhere I want to go, everyone I want to meet...I will. And if I don't, it's my fault. I need to make it happen. Every day I've been growing closer to what I know I want to be. 

I want to work for National Geographic and/or a music magazine like NME or Rock Sound. None of that fashion magazine or Rolling Stone bullshit. National Geographic would take me the places I want to go, where as a music magazine who introduce me to the people I want to meet.

I want to live a memorable life. Something I could brag about. I want to live like a rock star, if only once in a while. I want to get (more) tattoos and dress how I like and date who I like. I want people to be wowed. I want to be wowed. I don't want to live a dull, ordinary life. I just can't have that!

I want to move to London, I'm sure of it. I already have
 to spend the first 22 years of my life (almost 19 down!) here in Syracuse, but I can wait. London is my personality embodied in a city. Punk and modern, old-fashioned and beautiful, big and exciting. It's what I need! Not to mention I'm in love with the culture and their celebrities. I've already disowned the US, I can't believe I'm still here!

Then of course there are places I want and plan to visit soon - Japan, South Africa, and the UK. Japan to teach ESL to adults. I just think that will be an experience for the books. South Africa with my roommate - a place that not many people I know visit, and especially not with an insider view. And of course the UK because I'm simply in awe of it all.


A lot of people think of me as an extreme optimist. My friends probably do, even though they support me through and through. But even if I AM an optimist, I can't think of myself that way. I see myself as a realist...maybe I'm just delusional. But I don't think so. 

*These photographs are not mine!

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